Yesterday, I grabbed my camera, loaded Grinch into the truck, and drove to the state forest. The same state forest where Joe and I spent so much of our time over the years, camping. I’d been feeling the pull to do this for days, and decided that NOW was the time; the weather has been amazing with the cooler temperatures,…
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Sweet Surrender
MOM
One day some time ago while I was visiting my mom (my secret keeper) I shared with her that “all Joe wanted to do anymore was watch TV,” and how hard it was for me because there were so many other things I’d rather be doing. Like reading. Like writing. Like making pictures. Like, go camping. I don’t know if…
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Falling Faster
It’s pretty amazing when you think about it, how quickly we can jump into a new routine. Why is it so easy to do when you “have” to and so hard to do when you “want” to? I’m giving myself through Sunday to continue the way I have been since Joe died. Sitting, talking, dreaming, remembering, regretting, singing, all of…
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The Truth
This is not an easy story to tell, but it could be so much worse, as I am now keenly aware… The truth can be hard to hear, but it’s still worth telling. When I was a teenager- 14 or 15, I don’t remember exactly, living in the great Northwoods of Wisconsin (indeed, God’s country); one of my best friends’…
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June 26, 2020
At approximately 11:15 a.m., my husband, Joe, the love of my life, the father of six children and friend to many, walked into the field behind our house, found a beautiful spot in the woods- right under a shade tree, in front of a giant white oak that had fallen some time ago, and killed himself. He had been dealing…
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